Wednesday, April 27, 2011

just be nice or kindly go away .

why cant things work out ? im at the point where i think i dun even care anymore . yeahh ! IDUNCAREANYMORE .

we haven't talk in a while . its not because i dun care anymore (i don't rite now), but its because you pushed me away . yesyy you pushed me away !

so , let us deal with this . i do my thing and you do your thing . i am not in this world to live up with your expectations . and you are not here to live with mine . you are you and i am me . and if by chance we meet again each other , ITS BEAUTIFUL .

i guess i thought i'd try , to carve out a better us .
i offer the appologize , for wanting the easy life .
but i dun think i can take it anymore .

so , please . respect me as i respect you . dun be rude . just be nice or you just can go away . out of my sight .
thank you .

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

KAU ADE KE ?? haha


saye ILY AMER adalah seorang gadis normal jika dilihat dari luar .

macam tade ap ap y tak kena ponn . 

tapi saye ad tabiat burok . tabiat hudoh gilerr . HAHA

MEMPERKENALKAN 2 TABIAT BUROK LAGI HUDOH TAPI AWESOME :

1- Bila makan makanan especially MAGGI GORENG , saye suke sumbat banyak banyak dalam mulut .
alaaa , y ala ala korea makan tuhh . hehe . sumbat sampai full , then bawu mengunyah ;)

2-Saye suke hidu bau bantal tilam dan selimut . bantal busuk orang ponn tak kesah sebab bagi saye bau dy same je dengan bantal busuk saye . heh3


Monday, April 25, 2011

ONE PIECE OF MINE FOR YOU


It's 1 am and im still here , alone and cudnt sleep . listening to songs and thinking thinking thinking and thinking . about life and the content . if the sigh can be count , i dont know how many sigh i have thru my life . my life is great . really great . being given three angles and many fairy besides . among the many fairies , i was only been given the best . i have no doubt that they are the best . thank you dear God .

people said that life is like you are on a wheel . there's up and down . each time you are at the top , dun you ever forget those whose at the bottom . and when you are at the bottom , push more effort so that one day you may be at the top too . keep trying and never give up . going thru a great life like mine , i've experience many phrase . whether it's the easy or the hard . i'd being at the top and the bottom .

 each time i am about to fall down , i keep saying to myself , be patient , everybody have to feel the experience , everything have the good and the bad . all you have to do is just keep believing that everything is just gonna be fine . everything is just gonna be okay . this is the time where you are at the bottom . but you see , human is created with feelings . we are being created with the 5 sense . consider yourself lucky if you got 6 . if you cant bear to face the phrase in life , at certain time , just let go those ego in yours and all you have to do is CRY . no one will stop you , in fact , they cant . at certain moment in life , i'll sit alone , thinking back of those past i'd done in my life and the upcoming future . and i'll end up with tears . its normal . let them go . let those silence you've keep inside you . let them out loud .

but you see , the best wud be when you have someone besides you . someone to share your problem with . someone who never stop you when you wanna cry . someone who is willing to lend you his or her shoulder , lend you his or her ears . someone who when you are about to give up , will hold your hand , hug you and comfort you . keep supporting you and keep encouraging you . have you guys get that someone in your life ? that someone will never ever judge you , never backstab you , never say bad things about you , never let you down . that someone just want the best for you . keep loving you no matter what . always be there for you . up and down . i'd been searching for that someone since the past 6 years . its not stated that i dun have friends who support me . but i really wish that someone really exist . thats all .

 sometimes , people will still wanna judge you . and at some point , you'll say "jadi diri sendiri pun susah , jadi lain dari diri sendiri pun orang tak suka" . believe me ! YOU WILL . it wud be such a lie if i say its not tiring . human beings will never get the satisfaction . some , keep saying this and that about others , but in the mean time , they dun even realize are they good enuff ? are they been good enuff when they start judging and talking back about others bad ? huhh ! i dun think so . so you see , i cant do anything about those mouth . one fine day , when all the bad things make a u turn and get back to them , at that time , they'll realize that this world is sphere . because WHAT GOES AROUND , COMES AROUND . and by that time , they'll definitely shut those fucking mouth up !

come on people , just stop searching for others weakness and use that to let them fall . everybody and everything have the good and the bad . they themselves got it too . its just they never want to open their eyes and face the fact . why ? because they cant accept their own lackness . you cant always be right people . there's too many things inside me to be share on this white paper . hemm , maybe A WHITE A4 PAPER can be that someone ! the paper may not hear you and lend you the ears or the shoulder , but someday somehow , it helps a lot . all you have to do is write and write and write . express everything on the piece of paper . 

*sigh* .

in life , when thing is turning upside down , the only person i need is MUMMY . me , myself , when i get depress , i'll call her and cry . being far away from beloved home and beloved family , sometimes , i do imagine , when im crying , mummy will come and seat next to me . she'll hug me and kiss me . she'll keep reminding me to just ignore those bad people out there . just live your life happily . she knows which one is the best for me and which one is not . she'll keep supporting me . and keep telling me not to be worry . just go on with your study . go on with your life . let those people who doesnt like you behind . just be with the one who love you . i love you mummy ! the world wudnt be great without a mom like you . and now i miss home badly . really wanna go home . hugging mummy and share everything with her . if i am given a choice , to be home or to be at college . i rather choose to be home . helping her with the house chores , ironing her clothes , gardening with her during weekend , going to the market every morning , taking care of her when she's ill and the best wud be when i can keep looking at her . every single day ! kissing her and hugging her . i can live happily with all that . n i dun need anybody else to complete me . she complete me enuff .

‎ but people will still say , you dun know how to socialize if life is going on that way . and i realize , I CANT LIVE WITH BELOVED MUMMY FOR MY ENTIRE LIFE . she will never always be here to take care of me . one day , she'll be taken away from me . and by that time , i have to just be me , whom i believe is a strong and independent girl . whom i believe can stand on her own feet . whom i believe knows how to stand up own her own believe . whom i believe can take a good care of her own younger sister . just for the sister's sake . live the life normally and keep being stroger just for her adik . i am just me whom i believe one fine day , i can stand up proudly with the lecturer's title . insyaallah ! so , no matter what , life must be go on . thats all . dun you ever give up . like i always say to myself , keep believing that everything is gonna be fine . everything is just gonna be okay . there are people who's relying on you and want to see you successfully succeed in your life . besides , on what reasons ever made you think to give up if you can hold on for such a long time this while ?? keep going okay !

and to NUR AFIFAH IBRAHIM , NURULAQIELA NORAZEMI , NORTI MAT TAHIR , FAZIRA KAMAL , NUR LIYANA ISA and HAFIZAH ARIS , thank you for making life in such greatness . love you guys !

lots of love ,
 ILY AMER :))


:: HAPPY BIRTHDAY PRINCE ROUL :: HAPPY SHOPPING DAY ::

Yesterday was quite an exhausted day for us . Banyak gila tempat kitorang pegi . Banyak gila gila jugak barang kitorang joli and of course for sure laa kann , banyak gila gila gila duet habes . hehe . alaa bukan selalu ponn :))
So , bertempat di Sungei Wang's KFC , dan dihadiri seramai lebih kurang 30 orang teman rapat , kitorang mencelebrate birthday si budak Sabah neyy . We'd 2 bucket of KFC and one GIANT Secret Recipe's Chocolate Indulgence . whoaaa :D * wink wink * kenyang gila okayy !

Then , selesai bersambut sambutan birthday si budak hibrie tuhh , maka kitorang ponn mula membuka langkah yang lebih besar dan masing masing mula mengwithdrawal kan sejumlah cash yang besar untuk berSHOPPING ! hahaha . nak story morry kat sini dalam ayat ke ayat , mungkin akan jadi sedikit membosankan , so why dun you guys catch the snap below . hehe .

Dari Sungei Wang *sempat jugakk shopping kasut RUBI lepas selesai membaham KFC , kami ke PWTC . There's an International Bookfair . Aku cuma beli Al-Quran terjemahan je . Then kami patah balek heading to Hang Tuah , MAKAN TIME . Hajatnya nak makan dekat Pavilion , kononnya nak makan spaghetti laa , tapi since kaki kitorang neyy rasanya macam dah tak berapa nak jejak bumi dah , maka kami ponn memendekkan perjalanan . Dekat Hang Tuah , lagi menyengal dan lagi menggiler . haha . tengok pic bawah jelaa .

1- anis yang sengal di stesen Monorel ke Hang Tuah


2- kami  ternyata sengal di SUBWAY . macam tempat tuhh bapak kami punya 


3- intong dan farah yang sangat sengal


4- jangan nak buat muka terkejut sangat laa kann . haha


5- 3 budak sengett ;p


6- farah tak penah menggila macam neyy . tahniah laa ! HAHA


7- faham faham sendiri laa ae .


8- inilah wajah wajah kekenyangan


9- muka yang bole dikira perasan chomel bila buat muka busukk macam tuhh


10- maaflah ! intong tak di ajar untuk cover cover muka . hahaha


11- sedikit kegilaan dan kesengalan in front of F.O.S's mirror


12- yang neyy ponn same je . hehe


13- bertenggek merehatkan bontot . awuhaiii ~ penat !


14- intong dengan muka kurusnya ;p


15- intong , ily , n fara


16- captured by anis hussin


17- awwww ! konon kurus laa kann . haha . pipi je ;p


18- say cheeseeeeee :D its the end of the day .


so , konklusi nya , kitorang balek rumah sampai dalam about 10 pm jugak laa . and balek malam tuhh memang terbongkang semua orang . hehe . and the gud wud be when i finally manage to buy the TL shoes . kale pink lagi . awww ! thats all folks . bubye :))

lots of love , 
ily amer :))


Monday, April 18, 2011

So , what are you anyway ??

Seems like last two weeks had been a very tough week for me . Too many things to be done but still there's too many things happened . Bad things I mean . Sometimes , its hurting and sometimes we do call it temptation . People will never get to understand us or some maybe never want to . People love to just judge by listening to the third person . Non trying to refer to us first . Judging and talking this and that and some prefer to be a backstabber . But I mean not all. And when thing is turning upside down , I really wish mummy is here to be with me and keep reminding me that everything is going to be okay . Accompany me because she's the one who never left me at the back . She never judge me and will never .

Friend would be the closest no matter where we are . And supposed they are the one who'll keep being here , by your side no matter what . They don't supposed to stab you from the back . At all . But anyway , its not about friend anymore . People sometimes may loose something that we call patience . When everything is turning upside down , when everything become harder and harder , you people whom we call friend are the one who should not start the judgement . Just for once , put yourself in the person's shoes so you'll figure out the black and white of life . Just for once !

Its tiring to always taking care of another person's feeling . Plus , when the person we are trying to taking care of never appreciate us . To make it worst ,  they just trying to be rude . To keep silence all the time will never going to settle down all those stuff . In certain things yes ! Seems like friend nowadays are like dypers . Well , don't get mad because that can be seen . OBVIOUSLY ! Does a friend get mad when his or her friend make a small mistakes ? Does a friend started to be rude even she or he doesn't know whether the friend is making mistakes or not ? Does a friend did that ? I don't think so . Owhh ! And most important , a true friend will never leave you behind NO MATTER WHAT .

You see , nobody know you better than you yourself . You may know his or her name , address etc , but you'll never know the person's life . Never know the story and you'll never going too .

So , I'm asking you , what are you anyway ??

Sunday, April 17, 2011

Pencarian kini berakhir :))

Assalamualaikum .

Hari neyy saket perot sebab semalam makan fries akak tuhh tarok lada banyak sangat . haduiii -__-" . so , tandas rumah kedua ku . Ifaa suruh makan pil chi kit teck aun tapi tanak . Mane penah makan benda alah tuhh . Mesti tak sedap ! GERENTI ! Malam neyy ponn makan lagi fries tuhh tapi dah tak letak lada dah . Kalau letak lada lagi , besok muka mesti macam zombi . hahaha .

Owhh btw ! dari hari tuhh asyik mencari cari rumah sewa . Dah macam macam orang , macam macam jenis rumah da jumpe TAPI sayangs nye semua tak berkenan di haty atas alasan transport . haihhh . Dapat rumah neyy , owner tanak sewa dekat student . Katenye takot student rosakkan rumah dy . Dapat satu banglo RM13++ , ponn same jugakk . Takot student rosakkan rumah lawa dy . Apartmen neyy , kotor laa , selalu negro ceroboh masok laa , itu laa ini laa blablabla .. tak jadi jugakk . Dapat satu kondo dekat dengan hostel , member tak berani nak drive area situ .

End up , semua tak jadi . Call cina tuhh , cina neyy , semua provide rumah yang jaoh dari kolej . Susah rupenya nak carik rumah . Yelaa , nak berdikari bukan senang . Semua nak kena setlekan sendiri . Tawu laa mase tuhh , langit tinggi ke rendah . Penat betol . But finally , jumpe jugakk rumah Idaman Kalbu . haha . Its a double-storey house dekat area Pandan tetttt . tenkiu chaa :)) awww ! sayangs kau lebih .

So , berakhirlah pencarian rumah sewa ku . Menyewa dengan harga 800 per month , 4 bedroom and 3 bathroom . Alhamdulillah :)) Tak saba sebenanye nak pindah masok . Nanty bermula laa episod menyental lantai rumah pulakk kann . hahaha .

Tuhh laa , engat senang ke nak berdikari ?

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

specially dedicated to you , SHIN CHAN .


Dear Shin Chan sayangs ,

dari sudut haty saye yang paling dalam ,
saye mintak maaf dekat awak .
saye sayangs awak SHIN CHAN .
untuk menyaketkan haty awak akan jadi perkara terakhir dalam hidup yang saye akan buat .
tak pernah terlintas di haty kecik neyy untuk saketkan haty awak .
saye nak awak tawu ,
segala ap yang saye buat ,
segala ap yang saye cakap ,
semuanya demi nak menjaga haty awak .
firasat haty saye memang tak penah salah kann ?
tak salah jugakk bile saye cakap awak dah berubah .
tapi awak menafikan !
saye tak mintak banyak ponn SHIN CHAN .

JUJUR !
yang tuhh je saye mintak .
jujur dengan saye bermakna awak jujur dengan persahabatan kite .
saye expect awak kenal saye dengan baek .
dan dari situ saye expect awak faham kenape saye buat macam tuhh .
awak nak mase saye bole bagi .
tapi sampai bile kite akan macam neyy .
hidup dengan awak , 
hari hari tengok muka awak ,
tiap tiap malam pegi rumah awak ,
gelak gelak dengan awak ,
itu semua dah sebati dengan saye .
itu semua dah jadi sebahagian dari rutin hidup saye .
macam mane saye bole tahan kalau hari hari bile jumpe awak ,
saye nak kena mengelak ??
susah tawu takk ?
saye tak bole buat semua neyy SHIN CHAN .

bodohlah saye SHIN CHAN kalau saye nak cite semua benda pasal saye dengan dia dekat awak .
sedangkan saye tawu haty awak macam mane dekat dy .
dan itu semua saye buat semata mata tanak saketkan haty awak .
saye tanak awak pk bukan bukan pasal saye dengan dy .
percayelaa SHIN CHAN !
saye dengan dy cuma kawan je .
tak lebih .
awak engat saye tak rase serba salah ke ?
haty saye rase semua tuhh , 
cuma saye carik mase yang sesuai untuk bagi tawu awak .
entahlaa ..
awak pk laa baek baek .

saye sayangs awak .
saye sayangs persahabatan kite .
saye tanak sebab benda kecik neyy , saye dengan awak jadi orang asing .
saye tak bole kite lame lame macam neyy .
mulut neyy ringan je nak menegur awak ,
tapi saye takot penerimaan awak negatif .
hari hari nampak awak , saye nak kena mengelak .
LIFE IS NOT THAT GREAT ANYMORE WITHOUT YOU DEAR ;((

p/s : SHIN CHAN ,
kalau awak baca neyy ,
awak maafkanlah saye .
saye sayangs awak .
dan saye nak balek SHIN CHAN saye yang lame .
yang selalu bergurau senda dengan saye .
saye windu semua tuhh ..
;((
saye windu bile kite pegi lepak pudu ulu same same .
burfday awak dah dekat kann ?
saye nak celebrate dengan awak .
okayy SHIN CHAN ??

ILURVEYOUKETATKETATSHINCHANSAYANGS ;))




AL-FATIHAH

Assalamualaikum readers ;))

first of all , im sory !
its been quite a long period since i last posted .
its quite busy with those esaimenssss stuff and presentationsss and those quizesss .
and pluss line pulakk lemb gilerr .
lots of things happened lately ..
the good and the bad .
too many things to be share with you guys here .. 

tanggal 27 MARCH 2011 akan jadi satu tarikh yang aku akan engat sampai hujung nyawa aku ..
untuk sape sape yang pernah baca entry pasal MAK ,

MAK da tade ..
arwah MAK meninggal pada tarikh tuhh .
pukul 6:30 pagi ..
kanser tulang tahap 4 .

p/s : sedekahkanlah AL-FATIHAH untuk arwah MAK ae korang ..
doakan supaya arwah aman dan ditempatkan dalam kalangan hamba-Nya yang beriman .
aminn .

MAK ,
mengenal MAK masa hayat MAK adalah satu anugerah tak ternilai ily dapat .
MAK adalah mak terbaek dalam dunia .
ily kenal dengan MAK mase MAK sihat tapi cuma berkesempatan untuk jumpa MAK mase MAK saket .
dan itu adalah pertama kali dan terakhir kali ily jumpa MAK .
pertama kali ily dapat cium tangan dan dahi MAK .
jugakk terakhir kali untuk ily .
MAK amanlah dekat sane .
doa ily sentiasa mengiringi MAK .

akhir kata ,
ILY SAYANG MAK ..