Wednesday, November 21, 2012


So today my boy is a year older. Alhamdulillah.

First & foremost, accept my apologize because I wasn't there to be by your side and celebrate your birthday. I only had a chance untuk wish dalam handphone je. Its better than nothing kan? :) Again, for the third times, I would like to wish you

                              HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY MY SWEETHEART  

Here are my little wish for you.

This is the most important day for me because it reminds me of the day you were born, you came into my life and made my life wonderful. Every single thing you've done and said made you so special. 

You see sayang, there are so many things in life to be happy about, the little, ordinary, simple things. Enjoy every moment you have, cherish them. Life shouldn't be a waste. On your special day, I wish all your wishes and dreams come true. May Allah ease everything for you. May HE bless you and may HE grant you with happiness all the time. The most important thing for me is to see & to make you happy.

You don't have to be worry about tomorrow because I believe, I always believe you're capable of doing anything and everything. I believe that you're going to get what you want. Through all these few years together, you are not someone who give up that easy. That's not my baby. So, keep on aiming high and trust yourself and have some faith in Allah :) You will always have me.

The little, ordinary, simple things;

Waking up next to you, the person I love.
Songs & smells that bring back old memories.
The smell after rain.
Our personal time, in our pajamas watching movies together, walking half-naked around the house and dance ourselves silly.
A hug from you when I'm having a bad day.
Lying on our bed after a long tiring work day.
Home spa.
Cooking together on weekends.
A phone call from you.
A morning, good night and everyday kiss from you.
Being in love with you.
Home-made cooking with you, my love.
Wearing your favorite clothes.
Having a deep conversation with you, sharing all thoughts and dreams.
Playing with your hair.
Acting silly like we always do.

and many many more to be counted. 

Happy bless Birthday to you honey baby. I'm glad and thankful that I have you :)

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

Again, writing the title is the hardest part.

People come and go. Sometimes I just let them be. Sometimes I fight for it, hoping they will stay. Sometimes I push them away. Those who want to stay, stay. Those who want to leave, go. Some people come back, some people are gone forever. But one thing I've learnt about life is, it goes on.

Yes, life goes on. I wake up to a new day, breathing again,  meeting people I know, bumping into people whom I will forget the next second, laughing my heart out at the jokes people make, remembering the faces that I miss the most before I go to sleep at night. Another day goes by.

Having a blog, I feel like I'm naked, because I make my vulnerability accessible to others, unintentionally. My thoughts, my feelings, my hopes, my dreams, I am transparent. Screw that, I find writing therapeutic. Because at the end of the day, it's how I feel that matters most.

Life scares me sometimes. But I figured, whatever will be, will be.

Because if something is bound to happen, it will happen.

Let it be.

Sunday, November 18, 2012

Present. Past. Future.

I really missed blogging. Oh my.

Kinda awkward to start writing again. Hmm. Mostly, all stories dah basi dah pun kalau nak diceritakan. Herher.

Since dah almost a month tk update anything, so rasanya better update balik. Too many things to share tapi kurang ilham nak menaip. Hehe. Plus, I am quite free these few months. Well, not really free, quite only. I am now happily enjoying my semester break. Dah last sem dah sekarang. Am waiting for the result of my practical next year. Sometimes I was like, WOW! 3 years were just like a blink of an eye. Things happened so fast and I can still see masa first time masuk pendaftaran semester 1 dulu. Here I am now, a graduate-student-to-be. Soon, InsyaAllah.

For now, duduk rumah, settling chores, taking care of my younger sister, tolong parents serba sikit. And I guess it'll be my life cycle during my semester break. Bangun pagi, beli breakfast untuk mummy & adik, tengok mummy pegi kerja, siram pokok, sapu sampah, sidai & lipat baju, kemas dapur, memasak untuk adik and so forth. Thats a fixed routine of mine. Never mind. I always remind myself, to enjoy these little things because without these little things, there'll be no big things :) So, enjoy whatever you have and whatever you're doing right now. Face, swallow and enjoy swallowing. If you cant swallow them, chew them. Ewah falsafah pulak kau.

Oh oh! Before I forgot, now ada bela kitten baru. Stray cat actually but he's kinda cute so amek jelaa. Hehe. Takdelaa friendly pun dengan Si Merah, my another cat. 

First time mandi. He love water I guess.

Tiba2 merenung masa depan dekat depan pintu. Sobs.

He got a few sleeping styles and these are two of them. Looks like a kangaroo and a gymnas style? I dont know. As long as he's happy T_T

Playing with my cats release my over-thinking.

Barang2 dekat rumah sewa almost semua dah dipacked. I'll miss rumah sewa too (incase kalau dapat praktikal area Selangor). Never will I find a home sweet home like that. Banyak kalau nak diikutkan kenangan. You know, all those good memories I had since the first day I entered college until now. Too many good memories. Too good. 

Things I regret the most was when the day aku nak balik Kedah, boyfriend didnt come and send me at Puduraya. Couldn't come actually. Dia ada replacement class. Bas aku pukul 2.30 pm and we both thought sempat laa kot nak hantar aku but he didn't manage to. Honest, I cried masa texting dengan dia dekat Puduraya. Yelaa its my last sem dah kan. Cuti sem kali ni will be quite long. Almost 3 months. Next year pulak dah praktikal so, ya. You guys know how does it feel kan? 

But I believe in Allah's plan. Maybe sometimes bila jauh, we appreciate the people we love more. Maybe bila jauh, Allah lebih pelihara hubungan dan hati masing2. Pelihara dari semua sudut. Maybe jugak bila jauh, we're able to see how strengthen our relationship is. How much do we really care for each other. InsyaAllah, kalau Allah dah tetapkan dia Adam aku, dan aku Hawa dia, InsyaAllah, one fine day :) Yang halal tu lebih indah. 

A someone whom I love wholeheartedly.

"Marriage is not only about wearing good clothes, not about how sweet the wedding gonna be. It's about strengthen the relationship between two families or more, it's about sharing love and thought. It's about having someone who will always be by your side, it's about all the way you love each other and will be blessed by HIM. It's about having someone who makes you feel acceptable,loved, and needed and there, both person will be there for each other together to love forever here and in another world. It's about, 'the more you love and appreciate your Soulmate, the more you'll be blessed by the Lord. - Dena Baharin"

And to you, dear future, I am ready. Betul laa kita cuma mampu merancang. I admit, I planned so many things inside my head. I dreamed and planned at the same time. How I want it to look like, with whom I'll be spending my future with, what I must achieve, this and that. I believe myself and my abilities. I believe that I am a strong and a very determine 20 year-old girl. 

When the time hit me, I hope Allah will ease everything. May Allah bless me, things I will be doing, people around me and those who pray for me. Deep down, I believe, everything will be just fine. As long as I have Him.

Because He knows best.

Sincerely, Ily Amer.