just be nice or kindly go away .

why cant things work out ? im at the point where i think i dun even care anymore . yeahh ! IDUNCAREANYMORE .

we haven't talk in a while . its not because i dun care anymore (i don't rite now), but its because you pushed me away . yesyy you pushed me away !

so , let us deal with this . i do my thing and you do your thing . i am not in this world to live up with your expectations . and you are not here to live with mine . you are you and i am me . and if by chance we meet again each other , ITS BEAUTIFUL .

i guess i thought i'd try , to carve out a better us .
i offer the appologize , for wanting the easy life .
but i dun think i can take it anymore .

so , please . respect me as i respect you . dun be rude . just be nice or you just can go away . out of my sight .
thank you .

KAU ADE KE ?? haha

saye ILY AMER adalah seorang gadis normal jika dilihat dari luar .

macam tade ap ap y tak kena ponn . 

tapi saye ad tabiat burok . tabiat hudoh gilerr . HAHA

MEMPERKENALKAN 2 TABIAT BUROK LAGI HUDOH TAPI AWESOME :

1- Bila makan makanan especially MAGGI GORENG , saye suke sumbat banyak banyak dalam mulut .

alaaa , y ala ala korea makan tuhh . hehe . sumbat sampai full , then bawu mengunyah ;)

2-Saye suke hidu bau bantal tilam dan selimut . bantal busuk orang ponn tak kesah sebab bagi saye bau dy same je dengan bantal busuk saye . heh3

ONE PIECE OF MINE FOR YOU

It's 1 am and im still here , alone and cudnt sleep . listening to songs and thinking thinking thinking and thinking . about life and the content . if the sigh can be count , i dont know how many sigh i have thru my life . my life is great . really great . being given three angles and many fairy besides . among the many fairies , i was only been given the best . i have no doubt that they are the best . thank you dear God .

people said that life is like you are on a wheel . there's up and down . each time you are at the top , dun you ever forget those whose at the bottom . and when you are at the bottom , push more effort so that one day you may be at the top too . keep trying and never give up . going thru a great life like mine , i've experience many phrase . whether it's the easy or the hard . i'd being at the top and the bottom .

 each time i am about to fall down , i keep saying to myself , be patient , everybody have to feel the experience , everything have the good and the bad . all you have to do is just keep believing that everything is just gonna be fine . everything is just gonna be okay . this is the time where you are at the bottom . but you see , human is created with feelings . we are being created with the 5 sense . consider yourself lucky if you got 6 . if you cant bear to face the phrase in life , at certain time , just let go those ego in yours and all you have to do is CRY . no one will stop you , in fact , they cant . at certain moment in life , i'll sit alone , thinking back of those past i'd done in my life and the upcoming future . and i'll end up with tears . its normal . let them go . let those silence you've keep inside you . let them out loud .

but you see , the best wud be when you have someone besides you . someone to share your problem with . someone who never stop you when you wanna cry . someone who is willing to lend you his or her shoulder , lend you his or her ears . someone who when you are about to give up , will hold your hand , hug you and comfort you . keep supporting you and keep encouraging you . have you guys get that someone in your life ? that someone will never ever judge you , never backstab you , never say bad things about you , never let you down . that someone just want the best for you . keep loving you no matter what . always be there for you . up and down . i'd been searching for that someone since the past 6 years . its not stated that i dun have friends who support me . but i really wish that someone really exist . thats all .

 sometimes , people will still wanna judge you . and at some point , you'll say "jadi diri sendiri pun susah , jadi lain dari diri sendiri pun orang tak suka" . believe me ! YOU WILL . it wud be such a lie if i say its not tiring . human beings will never get the satisfaction . some , keep saying this and that about others , but in the mean time , they dun even realize are they good enuff ? are they been good enuff when they start judging and talking back about others bad ? huhh ! i dun think so . so you see , i cant do anything about those mouth . one fine day , when all the bad things make a u turn and get back to them , at that time , they'll realize that this world is sphere . because WHAT GOES AROUND , COMES AROUND . and by that time , they'll definitely shut those fucking mouth up !

come on people , just stop searching for others weakness and use that to let them fall . everybody and everything have the good and the bad . they themselves got it too . its just they never want to open their eyes and face the fact . why ? because they cant accept their own lackness . you cant always be right people . there's too many things inside me to be share on this white paper . hemm , maybe A WHITE A4 PAPER can be that someone ! the paper may not hear you and lend you the ears or the shoulder , but someday somehow , it helps a lot . all you have to do is write and write and write . express everything on the piece of paper . 

*sigh* .

in life , when thing is turning upside down , the only person i need is MUMMY . me , myself , when i get depress , i'll call her and cry . being far away from beloved home and beloved family , sometimes , i do imagine , when im crying , mummy will come and seat next to me . she'll hug me and kiss me . she'll keep reminding me to just ignore those bad people out there . just live your life happily . she knows which one is the best for me and which one is not . she'll keep supporting me . and keep telling me not to be worry . just go on with your study . go on with your life . let those people who doesnt like you behind . just be with the one who love you . i love you mummy ! the world wudnt be great without a mom like you . and now i miss home badly . really wanna go home . hugging mummy and share everything with her . if i am given a choice , to be home or to be at college . i rather choose to be home . helping her with the house chores , ironing her clothes , gardening with her during weekend , going to the market every morning , taking care of her when she's ill and the best wud be when i can keep looking at her . every single day ! kissing her and hugging her . i can live happily with all that . n i dun need anybody else to complete me . she complete me enuff .

‎ but people will still say , you dun know how to socialize if life is going on that way . and i realize , I CANT LIVE WITH BELOVED MUMMY FOR MY ENTIRE LIFE . she will never always be here to take care of me . one day , she'll be taken away from me . and by that time , i have to just be me , whom i believe is a strong and independent girl . whom i believe can stand on her own feet . whom i believe knows how to stand up own her own believe . whom i believe can take a good care of her own younger sister . just for the sister's sake . live the life normally and keep being stroger just for her adik . i am just me whom i believe one fine day , i can stand up proudly with the lecturer's title . insyaallah ! so , no matter what , life must be go on . thats all . dun you ever give up . like i always say to myself , keep believing that everything is gonna be fine . everything is just gonna be okay . there are people who's relying on you and want to see you successfully succeed in your life . besides , on what reasons ever made you think to give up if you can hold on for such a long time this while ?? keep going okay !

and to NUR AFIFAH IBRAHIM , NURULAQIELA NORAZEMI , NORTI MAT TAHIR , FAZIRA KAMAL , NUR LIYANA ISA and HAFIZAH ARIS , thank you for making life in such greatness . love you guys !

lots of love ,

 ILY AMER :))

:: HAPPY BIRTHDAY PRINCE ROUL :: HAPPY SHOPPING DAY ::

Yesterday was quite an exhausted day for us . Banyak gila tempat kitorang pegi . Banyak gila gila jugak barang kitorang joli and of course for sure laa kann , banyak gila gila gila duet habes . hehe . alaa bukan selalu ponn :))
So , bertempat di Sungei Wang's KFC , dan dihadiri seramai lebih kurang 30 orang teman rapat , kitorang mencelebrate birthday si budak Sabah neyy . We'd 2 bucket of KFC and one GIANT Secret Recipe's Chocolate Indulgence . whoaaa :D * wink wink * kenyang gila okayy !

Then , selesai bersambut sambutan birthday si budak hibrie tuhh , maka kitorang ponn mula membuka langkah yang lebih besar dan masing masing mula mengwithdrawal kan sejumlah cash yang besar untuk berSHOPPING ! hahaha . nak story morry kat sini dalam ayat ke ayat , mungkin akan jadi sedikit membosankan , so why dun you guys catch the snap below . hehe .

Dari Sungei Wang *sempat jugakk shopping kasut RUBI lepas selesai membaham KFC , kami ke PWTC . There's an International Bookfair . Aku cuma beli Al-Quran terjemahan je . Then kami patah balek heading to Hang Tuah , MAKAN TIME . Hajatnya nak makan dekat Pavilion , kononnya nak makan spaghetti laa , tapi since kaki kitorang neyy rasanya macam dah tak berapa nak jejak bumi dah , maka kami ponn memendekkan perjalanan . Dekat Hang Tuah , lagi menyengal dan lagi menggiler . haha . tengok pic bawah jelaa .

1- anis yang sengal di stesen Monorel ke Hang Tuah

2- kami  ternyata sengal di SUBWAY . macam tempat tuhh bapak kami punya 

3- intong dan farah yang sangat sengal

4- jangan nak buat muka terkejut sangat laa kann . haha

5- 3 budak sengett ;p

6- farah tak penah menggila macam neyy . tahniah laa ! HAHA

7- faham faham sendiri laa ae .

8- inilah wajah wajah kekenyangan

9- muka yang bole dikira perasan chomel bila buat muka busukk macam tuhh

10- maaflah ! intong tak di ajar untuk cover cover muka . hahaha

11- sedikit kegilaan dan kesengalan in front of F.O.S's mirror

12- yang neyy ponn same je . hehe

13- bertenggek merehatkan bontot . awuhaiii ~ penat !

14- intong dengan muka kurusnya ;p

15- intong , ily , n fara

16- captured by anis hussin

17- awwww ! konon kurus laa kann . haha . pipi je ;p

18- say cheeseeeeee :D its the end of the day .

so , konklusi nya , kitorang balek rumah sampai dalam about 10 pm jugak laa . and balek malam tuhh memang terbongkang semua orang . hehe . and the gud wud be when i finally manage to buy the TL shoes . kale pink lagi . awww ! thats all folks . bubye :))

lots of love , 

ily amer :))

So , what are you anyway ??

Seems like last two weeks had been a very tough week for me . Too many things to be done but still there's too many things happened . Bad things I mean . Sometimes , its hurting and sometimes we do call it temptation . People will never get to understand us or some maybe never want to . People love to just judge by listening to the third person . Non trying to refer to us first . Judging and talking this and that and some prefer to be a backstabber . But I mean not all. And when thing is turning upside down , I really wish mummy is here to be with me and keep reminding me that everything is going to be okay . Accompany me because she's the one who never left me at the back . She never judge me and will never .

Friend would be the closest no matter where we are . And supposed they are the one who'll keep being here , by your side no matter what . They don't supposed to stab you from the back . At all . But anyway , its not about friend anymore . People sometimes may loose something that we call patience . When everything is turning upside down , when everything become harder and harder , you people whom we call friend are the one who should not start the judgement . Just for once , put yourself in the person's shoes so you'll figure out the black and white of life . Just for once !

Its tiring to always taking care of another person's feeling . Plus , when the person we are trying to taking care of never appreciate us . To make it worst ,  they just trying to be rude . To keep silence all the time will never going to settle down all those stuff . In certain things yes ! Seems like friend nowadays are like dypers . Well , don't get mad because that can be seen . OBVIOUSLY ! Does a friend get mad when his or her friend make a small mistakes ? Does a friend started to be rude even she or he doesn't know whether the friend is making mistakes or not ? Does a friend did that ? I don't think so . Owhh ! And most important , a true friend will never leave you behind NO MATTER WHAT .

You see , nobody know you better than you yourself . You may know his or her name , address etc , but you'll never know the person's life . Never know the story and you'll never going too .

So , I'm asking you , what are you anyway ??