Again, writing the title is the hardest part.

People come and go. Sometimes I just let them be. Sometimes I fight for it, hoping they will stay. Sometimes I push them away. Those who want to stay, stay. Those who want to leave, go. Some people come back, some people are gone forever. But one thing I've learnt about life is, it goes on.

Yes, life goes on. I wake up to a new day, breathing again,  meeting people I know, bumping into people whom I will forget the next second, laughing my heart out at the jokes people make, remembering the faces that I miss the most before I go to sleep at night. Another day goes by.

Having a blog, I feel like I'm naked, because I make my vulnerability accessible to others, unintentionally. My thoughts, my feelings, my hopes, my dreams, I am transparent. Screw that, I find writing therapeutic. Because at the end of the day, it's how I feel that matters most.

Life scares me sometimes. But I figured, whatever will be, will be.

Because if something is bound to happen, it will happen.

Let it be.

Present. Past. Future.

I really missed blogging. Oh my.

Kinda awkward to start writing again. Hmm. Mostly, all stories dah basi dah pun kalau nak diceritakan. Herher.

Since dah almost a month tk update anything, so rasanya better update balik. Too many things to share tapi kurang ilham nak menaip. Hehe. Plus, I am quite free these few months. Well, not really free, quite only. I am now happily enjoying my semester break. Dah last sem dah sekarang. Am waiting for the result of my practical next year. Sometimes I was like, WOW! 3 years were just like a blink of an eye. Things happened so fast and I can still see masa first time masuk pendaftaran semester 1 dulu. Here I am now, a graduate-student-to-be. Soon, InsyaAllah.

For now, duduk rumah, settling chores, taking care of my younger sister, tolong parents serba sikit. And I guess it'll be my life cycle during my semester break. Bangun pagi, beli breakfast untuk mummy & adik, tengok mummy pegi kerja, siram pokok, sapu sampah, sidai & lipat baju, kemas dapur, memasak untuk adik and so forth. Thats a fixed routine of mine. Never mind. I always remind myself, to enjoy these little things because without these little things, there'll be no big things :) So, enjoy whatever you have and whatever you're doing right now. Face, swallow and enjoy swallowing. If you cant swallow them, chew them. Ewah falsafah pulak kau.

Oh oh! Before I forgot, now ada bela kitten baru. Stray cat actually but he's kinda cute so amek jelaa. Hehe. Takdelaa friendly pun dengan Si Merah, my another cat. 

First time mandi. He love water I guess.

Tiba2 merenung masa depan dekat depan pintu. Sobs.

He got a few sleeping styles and these are two of them. Looks like a kangaroo and a gymnas style? I dont know. As long as he's happy T_T

Playing with my cats release my over-thinking.

Barang2 dekat rumah sewa almost semua dah dipacked. I'll miss rumah sewa too (incase kalau dapat praktikal area Selangor). Never will I find a home sweet home like that. Banyak kalau nak diikutkan kenangan. You know, all those good memories I had since the first day I entered college until now. Too many good memories. Too good. 

Things I regret the most was when the day aku nak balik Kedah, boyfriend didnt come and send me at Puduraya. Couldn't come actually. Dia ada replacement class. Bas aku pukul 2.30 pm and we both thought sempat laa kot nak hantar aku but he didn't manage to. Honest, I cried masa texting dengan dia dekat Puduraya. Yelaa its my last sem dah kan. Cuti sem kali ni will be quite long. Almost 3 months. Next year pulak dah praktikal so, ya. You guys know how does it feel kan? 

But I believe in Allah's plan. Maybe sometimes bila jauh, we appreciate the people we love more. Maybe bila jauh, Allah lebih pelihara hubungan dan hati masing2. Pelihara dari semua sudut. Maybe jugak bila jauh, we're able to see how strengthen our relationship is. How much do we really care for each other. InsyaAllah, kalau Allah dah tetapkan dia Adam aku, dan aku Hawa dia, InsyaAllah, one fine day :) Yang halal tu lebih indah. 

A someone whom I love wholeheartedly.

"Marriage is not only about wearing good clothes, not about how sweet the wedding gonna be. It's about strengthen the relationship between two families or more, it's about sharing love and thought. It's about having someone who will always be by your side, it's about all the way you love each other and will be blessed by HIM. It's about having someone who makes you feel acceptable,loved, and needed and there, both person will be there for each other together to love forever here and in another world. It's about, 'the more you love and appreciate your Soulmate, the more you'll be blessed by the Lord. - Dena Baharin"

And to you, dear future, I am ready. Betul laa kita cuma mampu merancang. I admit, I planned so many things inside my head. I dreamed and planned at the same time. How I want it to look like, with whom I'll be spending my future with, what I must achieve, this and that. I believe myself and my abilities. I believe that I am a strong and a very determine 20 year-old girl. 

When the time hit me, I hope Allah will ease everything. May Allah bless me, things I will be doing, people around me and those who pray for me. Deep down, I believe, everything will be just fine. As long as I have Him.

Because He knows best.

Sincerely, Ily Amer.

The hardest part is to write the title.

Sometimes, I am just not strong enough. 

Make it happen.

Assalamualaikum.

I sat for my MUET Speaking Test yesterday, dekat SMK Datok Lokman with my 2 classmates. With little preparations, I have to admit that I was quite nervous. Of course la kan?

We were given 2 tasks; Task A & Task B and I was the first candidate. The rest were an Indian guy & two Malay guys. So, my topic was

'If you had a few hours to bring foreign visitors around, which place will you choose?'

• A place of worship
• A night market
• A museum
• A cultural center

Unfortunately, I misunderstood maksud worship tu which I thought tempat bersejarah. I'd blame my nervousness for that! As I started talking, the examiner stopped me and said , 'You're supposed to talk about a place of worship. A place of worship is where you pray.' LOL! Nasib baik examiners semalam baik2 belaka and they did give me another chance to speak. Fhewww -.-

I'd say Task A tu sangat kurang memuaskan but Alhamdulillah Task B memuaskan hati. Doa2 jelaa marks tak teruk sangat. I'll be sitting for my next test on 10 November 2012.

A note to others, as well as myself; No matter how hard tings seem to be, if there's a will, there's a way. If you really want it to happen, you can make it happen, and it will happen, if God wills it. Do not lose hope and give up. Watch me strive for my next test!

p/s: Im counting days for our 2 years relationship. I love you sweetheart. Always do.

KPTM's Convocation Day Part I, II & III.

Assalamualaikum. Hi *lambai dekat diri sendiri*

Last few days aku kena jaga Majlis Konvokesyen kolej hebak, dekat PICC Putrajaya. Total semua 3 hari; sehari raptai, next 2 days the real one. So, let's begin.

CONVOCATION DAY PART I

One whole day without boyfriend. I mean, he was there but we didnt talk because we had a fight. Haha. I looked pail -.- Mind that please.

Arrived.

Nanis.

Ain Bakhtiar.

With Nanis & Khai.

Enjoying our moment.

Smiling for no reason.

Best friends.

Mine will be next year, InsyaAllah.

Buttons. 

I bought a button for my boyfriend on that day. Dengan hasrat nak memujuk. Luckily, he accepted the button even though he refused to talk with me. Mihihi.

I am nearly versatile.

I am finally humorous.

I am actually smart.

CONVOCATION DAY PART II

Yayy! Dah berbaik. HEE :D 

Tudung: Tudung bawal Aidijuma 2 lapis. Yang kuning tu tudung bawal tapi inner pendek.

Baju: Kurung moden. Baju lelaki macam ala2 hotel punya baju.

Bajet artis.

Gambar2 Convocation Day Part III tidak dapat di upload. Hari ke-3, kitorang pakai skirt hitam, kemeja putih with blazer, tudung bawal sponsored by Aidijuma warna maroon. Attire lelaki pulak formal. Slack, kemeja putih, coat, red tie. Overall, kesemua 3 hari berjalan lancar. One precious experience with precious people :) They way we cherish little things together, I love it. Just perfect. 

p/s: Study hard okay sayang? I'll stay with you & I'll keep staying. I love you.