Mihmihmih.

I love you sayang, baby durian. You're my zing.

Boey.

I don't know how to pronounce the name. Whether it is BO-E, or BOYI or BO-A. Let's just call him BO-E.

So, who's Boey? He's a Malaysian artist yg terkenal dengan lukisan kartun animasi atas Styrofoam Cup. Leaving in California now.

Rasanya dh mula 'jatuh cinta' dengan hasil lukisan dia kot since I started reading his autobiographical graphic novel, When I Was A Kid. You guys should too :)

Heck! He's able to draw these? 

 Meet Boey and his Sharpie marker pen.

You can visit iamboey.com if you got nothing to do or if you're going through a boring day.

Monologue of mine.

What happened to us? We used to talk everyday for hours. Now? We don't even say a word to each other.


Its killing me and I'm dying.


I miss when we told each other 'I love you'.


I miss smiling after reading your text messages.


I miss your voice.


I miss how closed we used to be. Denying the fact that we are torn apart, day by day.


I miss talking stupid things and silly jokes with you. I miss those sweet conversation. The way you call me.


How I wish things would go back to how they used to be.


Things changed. It's tough.


I miss you. Most of all, I miss us. The old us.


The world doesn't know me the way you do. And for that, thank you.

I. Love. You.

211112.

So today my boy is a year older. Alhamdulillah.

First & foremost, accept my apologize because I wasn't there to be by your side and celebrate your birthday. I only had a chance untuk wish dalam handphone je. Its better than nothing kan? :) Again, for the third times, I would like to wish you

                              HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY MY SWEETHEART ♥ 

Here are my little wish for you.

This is the most important day for me because it reminds me of the day you were born, you came into my life and made my life wonderful. Every single thing you've done and said made you so special. 

You see sayang, there are so many things in life to be happy about, the little, ordinary, simple things. Enjoy every moment you have, cherish them. Life shouldn't be a waste. On your special day, I wish all your wishes and dreams come true. May Allah ease everything for you. May HE bless you and may HE grant you with happiness all the time. The most important thing for me is to see & to make you happy.

You don't have to be worry about tomorrow because I believe, I always believe you're capable of doing anything and everything. I believe that you're going to get what you want. Through all these few years together, you are not someone who give up that easy. That's not my baby. So, keep on aiming high and trust yourself and have some faith in Allah :) You will always have me.

The little, ordinary, simple things;

Waking up next to you, the person I love.
Songs & smells that bring back old memories.
The smell after rain.
Our personal time, in our pajamas watching movies together, walking half-naked around the house and dance ourselves silly.
A hug from you when I'm having a bad day.
Lying on our bed after a long tiring work day.
Home spa.
Cooking together on weekends.
A phone call from you.
A morning, good night and everyday kiss from you.
Being in love with you.
Home-made cooking with you, my love.
Wearing your favorite clothes.
Having a deep conversation with you, sharing all thoughts and dreams.
Playing with your hair.
Acting silly like we always do.

and many many more to be counted. 

Happy bless Birthday to you honey baby. I'm glad and thankful that I have you :)

Again, writing the title is the hardest part.

People come and go. Sometimes I just let them be. Sometimes I fight for it, hoping they will stay. Sometimes I push them away. Those who want to stay, stay. Those who want to leave, go. Some people come back, some people are gone forever. But one thing I've learnt about life is, it goes on.

Yes, life goes on. I wake up to a new day, breathing again,  meeting people I know, bumping into people whom I will forget the next second, laughing my heart out at the jokes people make, remembering the faces that I miss the most before I go to sleep at night. Another day goes by.

Having a blog, I feel like I'm naked, because I make my vulnerability accessible to others, unintentionally. My thoughts, my feelings, my hopes, my dreams, I am transparent. Screw that, I find writing therapeutic. Because at the end of the day, it's how I feel that matters most.

Life scares me sometimes. But I figured, whatever will be, will be.

Because if something is bound to happen, it will happen.

Let it be.